Stress really stresses me out

Outsourcing stress

The word ‘busy’ suitably defines my time at work this week. We’ve been working on a tender the size of my backside (which is pretty big). I don’t know what it is about deadlines, but it always seems to go to the wire. Goodbye zen, hello heart palpitations. One part of this tender involved my first major contribution. Lots and lots of writing, and the responsibility for making it sparkle all on my shoulders. That’s pressure. That’s getting so absorbed in something it takes your heart and soul for a little while. That’s stress having its way with your body through pounding headaches.

Believe me, when the pressure is off I know exactly how to relax. I’m pretty good at closing the ‘work’ door of my brain. But when there is work to be done, and a limited time to do it in, I go batshit crazy. Stress seems to control me. And it’s really rather annoying. Annoying to the point that I actually get stressed out at how stressed I am. Yesterday I left work when I simply couldn’t do any more. My brain had frazzled itself and shut down of its own accord – just like my computer does sometimes. I got home, popped some pills (disclaimer: they were over the counter ones) and put myself to bed to try and beat the pain with rest.

But could I rest? No. I was too tense. Too uptight. And then my brain woke up. I can’t complain too much because I ended up being very productive lying there in a dark room; I managed to nail a headline that I’d been struggling with. But that’s not the point. The point is that when stress does rear its silly ugly head, I let it take over. I let it rule everything. And it’s bad for my health, and my sanity.

At university I got so stressed that my hair started to fall out. I took some stress relief technique classes and, although I’m not sure they helped directly, I did get a better grip on coping with stress. At least, I thought I did. It hasn’t felt that way this week. Maybe I’ve just become better at relaxing when I don’t have things to worry about, and then gone into total breakdown when I do. Whatever it is, stress is not conducive to productivity. A little can be helpful, but a lot can send you over the edge.

I need to learn to take a breath and remind myself that stress is not my friend. So I shouldn’t give it the time of day. When it walks down the path towards my front door, I must try not to let it in. But that is so much easier said than done.

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3 thoughts on “Stress really stresses me out

  1. Hi. I think it depends so much on how your mind works. I help many companies with tendering for £m contracts, and I enjoy the thought of a deadline and a finished result. Look at what has to be done, and break it up in to more easily manageable chunks. Then you find as you tick each one off your list you gain a momentum which carries you through some of the more difficult parts of the tender. For stress – Reiki is the answer for me. Helps to channel my energies, helps to focus when I need to and clears my head to rest when I need that to make sure i have the energies I need for the next day. Finding a way to make stress work for you is the key, because you will achieve so much more. Also having something to look forward to once you have finished the tender – your reward to yourself can also work well too. Finally remember stress only affects people who care about what they have to get done. If the outcome doesn’t matter – there is no stress, and stress is your friend when it is behind you pushing you forward instead of in front pushing against you. be kind to yourself!

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